Meditation

Last week my pastor talked about goals for the New Year. I had been feeling pretty happy with myself for having set some smallish goals this year. I don't usually make resolutions, but my lack of discipline has really hindered me: in terms of improving my health (as much as I can in light of some things I can't control), my Christian growth, and my desire to immerse myself in the study of apologetics. Without discipline, those things, and others, have been nothing more than wishes.

What I learned Sunday really shocked me - I never even asked God what HE wants me to do! I pray all the time, but clearly I thought I didn't need to ask His opinion on this valuable question: what should I do with the time He's given me?

One of the categories Pastor Chico mentioned was meditation. I'm not hyper or super-active, but the idea of sitting and thinking, without any distractions, is foreign to me. Part of the problem is that thinking too much made me sad because I wasn't choosing what to think about.

I really want to pursue this - the idea of meditating on God, His attributes, His blessings, His creation - any and all things about God - is very exciting. And it requires discipline that I don't yet have, which can only help me in all areas of my life.